He’ll Carry You…
As most of you know, I’m the Primary President in my ward. Most days, I love my calling. In fact, 99.9% of the time, I love my calling.
But, I’ll be the first to tell you that the Primary Program STRESSES ME OUT. And even though this is the fifth one I’ve done…it still freaks me out.
I want everything to be perfect. Absolutely perfect. I want people to feel the Spirit. I want the kids to be a window to the Savior. I want people to leave feeling uplifted from simple testimonies and simple melodies. I want perfection.
Sometimes, I get so caught up in the “perfection” of the whole thing, that I forget the PURPOSE of the whole thing.
Right in the middle of all this program preparation, I had some events that reminded me of the purpose.
I went to a stake auxiliary training for primary. The theme for the evening was “Dear to the Heart of the Shepherd”. We discussed how we focus our attention on the ‘sheep’ that need it. We discussed the characteristics that classify a person from being a shepherd or a sheep herder. We talked about how the shepherd knows his sheep and that the sheep know their shepherd. It was an amazing evening that ended with a video of the Savior. The video depicted the Savior and his apostles. After a long stretch of teaching, they were finally sitting down to eat and get some rest. Almost as soon as the Savior sat down, a multitude began arriving with their children- wanting to be taught and blessed. The apostles hurried to shoo them away, so that the Savior could rest. As the apostles were turning people away, the Savior, as He often did, intervened. He told the apostles to “suffer the little children to come unto me.” He spent the afternoon teaching, blessing, praying and playing. You can find that video HERE
Keep this in mind.
Later that week, I was teaching singing time in primary. We were reviewing the song “I Know That My Savior Loves Me.” for the program. The kids were having a hard time remembering some of the words and really singing it with feeling. They didn’t understand what I meant when I told them to sing it with feeling.
I related the above story and showed them a picture of our Savior with a child wrapped in His arms. I asked each child to close their eyes and sing the song. The results were nothing short of incredible.
I ask each of you to do the same. I’m not asking you to sing, but to envision a child, maybe even you, wrapped in your Savior’s arms and think about these lyrics.
“A long time ago in a beautiful place,
Children were gathered ’round Jesus.
He blessed and taught as they felt of His love.
Each saw the tears on His face.
The love that He feels for His little ones,
I know He feels for me.
I did not touch Him or sit on His knee,
Yet, Jesus is real to me.
…….Wrapped in the arms of my Savior’s love,
I feel His gentle touch….
I know He lives!
I will follow faithfully.
My heart I give to Him.
I know that my Savior loves me.”
You may be asking right now, how does this even apply to me? I’m not in primary, I don’t have a kid that’s in primary…?
Back to the video.
The Savior was exhausted. He was hungry. He was just sitting down and resting his body and his feet that had walked a long way. He had just gotten a big drink of fresh, cold water and was starting to close His eyes to rest. And yet, when His children needed Him…and something that they could only get from Him…He was there. He was willing to teach, pray, play, bless. He dropped everything because they needed Him.
I know there are times when I feel overwhelmed and alone and in need of what only He can offer. It’s happened more often than not lately. I’ve been driven to my knees time and time again in exhaustion, frustration, loneliness, sadness and desperation. I cried out one night “Why me? Why can’t you just take this away? Why can’t you just heal this? It’s not fair!” I’m sure we’ve all had those times. And then I realized, He can’t take it away. He can’t heal everything. He can’t fix everything. Sometimes, He calms the storm, but sometimes, He lets the storm rage and comforts His child. He will always be there. He knows your pain, your trials, your suffering, your sadness. He knows. And when you need Him, all you have to do is ask and He’ll be there. He WILL be there. You are His sheep. When you are lost, He will come find you. He will rescue you. He won’t stop until He finds you. He will go out and stay out until you come home. I think Hilary Weeks wrote it better than I ever could in her song “He’ll Carry You”. (you can watch this one HERE)
“He knows your heart,
He knows your pain.
He knows the strength it took just to simply breathe today.
He sees the tears that you cry,
He knows your soul is aching to know why.
He hears your prayers
Each humble word
When you said you couldn’t face another day,
He knows the path when you walk blind,
Though you felt alone He’s never left your side…
He knew there’d be moments when no earthly words
Could take away your sorrow
And no human eyes could see what you’re going through
When you’ve taken your last step and done all that you can do,
He will lift your heavy load and carry you.”
He will always come. Always.